Life

I’ve never wanted to go to sleep as badly as I do now, even though for a college student, it’s still relatively early (11:15 PM) By the time I finish this post, it’ll be midnight. I’ve gradually adjusted my diet to eat less and less each day, probably the lack of glucose in my blood is making me drowsy. I’ll sleep… soon anyways.

So I went to Irvine over MLK weekend to visit my old high school friend. I’m not sure why I did it, I had things to do in SD, but I figured that I would do them in Irvine, and I was dead wrong. During the 3-day weekend, I read like 2 chapters from a book which was the weekend reading assignment for my New Testament literature class. I couldn’t get done as much as I wanted because my choices in Irvine were just Play, Sleep, or Study, and I could only pick two. Obviously you know what I chose. *rolls eyes*

I think the hi-lite of this past weekend was going to Ajisen, nice ramen place btw, and running into Eddie, my senpai from Leland. He’s ‘04 and I’m ‘06. I haven’t seen him in almost six years but he’s still the same guy he was back then. Only difference is, he’s living the high life. The kind of life that most of us want, but our personalities and inhibitions hold us back. Eddie’s the sort of guy who has it all: brains, money, girlfriend, popularity… etc. He’s still going to UC Irvine, but he knows how to live; he works at the ramen place 3 days a week, and goes to parties 4 days a week. He came by my friend’s apt. where I was crashing, and gave us some life advice, even though we’re world’s away from his socialite lifestyle. We don’t have a “life.” We don’t have what Eddie has. We want this elitist lifestyle in which we can blow $100 on a girl for one meal, and $200 if there’s alcohol. We want to constantly get the newest specs for our computers, make a lot of money, and drive a nice car. Eddie’s two years older than us and works two jobs and still goes to school full-time, and has a social life. What do the rest of us have?

Evidently, these are the ways of the world, the patterns we inevitably fall into. The question is whether we achieve it or not. I can’t say that I haven’t tried. Eddie gave us some tips to start out with:

1. Go to clubs (campus student organizations)

2. Get a job

3. Talk to people

I can’t say that I don’t have a life. I go to clubs, and I talk to people. I don’t work because I’m too busy with 5 class + 2 Extension classes, but I feel like I could always try harder. My relationships with other people are pretty weak, and the friends I hang out with are those I’ve kept in touch with since high school. I question why it has to be this way. Can God give me more friends rather than just acquaintances?

I don’t know right now. I’ll definitely have to take Eddie’s advice and be more proactive within my social circles, since I can always eke out time despite my 7 classes to make friends for life.